May 20th 2021

It's been rather a funny day. In the morning, spent quiet time with God reading 98 and prayed. I had coffee with Will while he ate his full breaakfast. It is rather fun to watch him eat so seriously first thing in the morning everyday. I Chated wiht my 3 sisters on the video chat and had a good laugh. I cooked pork belly in the oven with dry BBQ rub and ate lunch long after Will left for his office.

I tended to my little garden. I mopped the kitchen floor that Will had kindly vaccumed. I made iced tea for our eveing meal and I made and drunk hot mint tea which is one of my favorites. I even had a short late morning nap. I feel no peace, Just busy and noisy inside of my being. I am a bit anxicious for some reason. I hope it goes away. Well, it is 1:15 PM now. Much of the day is still yet to be lived. There is hope. I believe. So, I went back to continue to read Henri Nouwen's Sabbatical Journey on Sunday March 18th 1995 he wrote, "My mind is quite funny. I say that I want to hear the truth but then I keep begging for compliment." I realize that I am the same way. Shame. And funny too. Ok, reading on... A friend Marylyn called as she was grieving for her friend who was dying. We chatted a bit. She calmed down and I orgnizsed my book shelves- all 6 of them while we talked. I did finish the book by the time Will arrived home- shortly after 6:00 PM. So sad, Henry Nouwen died 16 days after his Sabbatical ended. Of messive heart attack. Am I going to die at the end of my sabbatical? I asked Will in the pool later in the evening. Oh, yes, we had a good hour of conversation and exercise in the pool. He said, " Don't be silly, Wife!" Evening was pleasant. I taught Will how to make panfired Tilapia with tadori malsala. I made brown lentil the rice cooker. Salad. A very good dinner.