Happenings???

Since January of this year, a lot of things have been happening in my life (all at the same time) but there seems to be no solid result.  Sometimes that's life. I am so busy doing stuff as it happens and falls at my face or I fall at it's face or faces.  I go with the motions doing my part but no conclusion or end result of any kind so far.  By God's grace Will will get well and get even better than before, but he is not yet there.  I am pursuing a call.  I know I will get to where God wants me to be on His own time, but I am not there yet.  

I am the kind of human being who loves to plan and/or be a part of a plan that has a beginning and a middle and an ending.  In a sense, I like being a part of a structure.  Those who know me well, know that I am frustrated by the unknown.  Known bad news is always much better preffered by me than unknown new or a state of extended suspense.  I enjoy the porcess only if there is a goal to reach.  If there was no goal I don't waste time on the process.  There is so much going on in our lives now, but the most frustrating thing is that I am now the unstructured one.  God loves me - that I know.  God always provides - that I know.  God leads me - that I know.  God does what is best for me/us - that I know.  All of the above and more are true.  In the midst of all of the unknown I remain grateful to God, for His steadfast endures forever.  

Many people walk their dogs, some including one of my new friends Brad and wife, walk their cats. I walk my husband who is doing fantastically well recovering from a quadruple bypass surgery 3 weeks ago today.  As we walk slowly to Will's doctor's recomended speed, we have many talks, good talks and discernment talks about our life together and our ministry.  It is very frustrating that things are happening in my life that are just like a never ending circle.  Will comforts me when I should be the one comforting him.  He reminds me of how things happen in God's timing.  One of my newer friends Reyn always ends a conversation saying "God's will will be done".  Yes.  God's will will be done.  But when and where and how????? I am ready.