It was last night. I went to bed a little before midnight and woke up at about 1:00 A.M. remembering things I had to do for work: thank you and information email to be send to the Shepherding Deacons, typing up some stuff for the bulletin announcements, calling some people back, meeting with some church members, home communion to be served, hospitalized people (at 2 hospitals) to visit, and it goes on and on and on in my mind.
On top of all of this I wondered if I would survive without Jeanine in the office. I know I am so proud of her and happy for her that she is going to go onto the mission field in a few more weeks. Yes, I am very proud of her and happy for her. Yes I am very proud of her and happy for her..... My mantra and yet do I not trust God that all will be well for me at the office as well? Whether or not I trust God, I was in a panic for the night. Could not sleep. So, I tried to remember why I was so panicky.
Aaaaaaa... that Shelby instruction class I attended at the Church in the afternoon. I was so uneducated!!! I know everyone there is kind and will help me. Well not really. It is not their job to help me. It is my own job to do my job.
I need support staff. I need help. I need an administrative assistant who knows how to organize me and how to teach me and how not to be afraid of me. I am so weary ... I know I need to trust God. So, I went out into the family room and prayed many times. And then watched the old version of "Sherlock Holmes" on Netflic. Pretty soon it watched me and I fell asleep on the couch till 3:00 A.M ish.
Went to work on time - well about 15 mintues late. Had much acomplished... NOT. All sorts of interruptions. I told my self my old mantra, "Interruptions are my work" over and over and over. At the end all went well. Throughout the day I was doing this or that or the other for people.... By the time I came to the last stop of hospital it was 7:00 P.M. Hungry I was. So, I made my dinner and ate gratefully to God who provided it.
Life is good. God is GREAT!
You are not allowed to feel in a panic lady! :) Thank you for your sweet words. (even though they make me feel sad!!) But here is what I do know...Everything will work out for the best possible way, for certain. I can't tell you how much your support, wisdom and encouragement has meant to me in the short time we have worked together at the Church -I value your friendship so much! I know that as God leads me out in this crazy new journey of faith, he will just as surely be with you to see that you have exactly what you need so you can accomplish what He has called you to do. I am completely convinced of this :)
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